Monday, December 29, 2008
well Chris and I have walked approx 12 miles since Friday, and planning on walking 4 more tomorrow, ..... Today she got to see "my" little side of the mountain at Conemaugh......and i think she really enjoyed it. I've always thought of Christina, as an "indoor" girl, not sure why......but she loves the outdoors......... and she is the one that is pushing me to walk, gee between her and Johnny, i am not going to have a chance.
well i better get going.....my computer was out yesterday for a while and off most of the day today...... my house phone isn't working right...... and i don't have most of my cable channels........... called Comcast from my bro's today....... and someone will be out in the next 72 hours to check the line for the 10th time in less than a month......Yoi, !!!!!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Okay I've been thinking a lot about Melody lately, it will be 2 years on Sunday since she last was a physical being on Earth. I haven't forgotten her in the least, and I have been thinking a lot about my promise to her, and have been heading in that direction for some time. You know I think i will be able to finally do the hike in October...... 10 miles, with every mile being in her honor. I have also decided to kill 2 birds with 1 stone so to speak, as i've always wanted to hike on the Appalachian Trail out East. so there you have it....... I am going to Pray, Trust God, and start (continue) to work towards that goal......... IT CAN BE DONE. who wants to join me ??? :0). Now i must figure out what part of the trail in Pennsylvania i'd like to do, decisions decisions.......
I am hoping to get a little hike in this morning..... and Katie and I plan on going for lunch this afternoon....... I am planning on having a wonderful day.
maybe i'll get on later .....but for now maybe i'll go take an early morning nap, since i've been up since 4am...
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
The bedrooms were too cold even for a mouse.
the cable went out as well as the phone
and who even tried the Internet in this home?
The fire place was warm, and the wood burner too
The kids all questioned what could we do?
Well no TV, no phone, no Internet, No Power.
and it was still too early to go to bed at this hour
So what did little Sammy think of to do on this night?
"we'll play payday using just the Candle light"
So the wind howled and whistled and blew so hard.
we could hear things go bump, as they passed through our yard
there was joking and laughter and quite a commotion
Katie tripping in the darkness put more laughter in motion.
She tripped over her feet, she tripped over our pets
she fell into the tree, landing on the presents
As i sat there all tired, and ready for bed, I had to say
Dear Lord, Thank you for the simplicity of this day
Crying and Complaining and maybe even a pout.
We couldn't change the fact the power went out
Yes this was our day....... we lost cable, Internet, the phone, our heating system........and then for Christmas eve we lost our power...... it was fun, and it was an adventure..... we played and laughed n the candle light, and even as the boys got a little too goofy and carried away too much, and even when i had to yell to settle them down, i got hugs and kisses on the cheek and told what a fun evening it was. Christina. your plate of cookies did not make it to Christmas day...... the kids had too much fun eating them in the dark..... since opening the fridge was off limits for the other snacks.
Happy Birthday Jesus, Thanks for a reminder what's really important in my life. ...... its not electricity, nor phone service , nor cable television or this computer..... it's not having a lot of money or tons of presents under the tree, ....... its having my family and my health, and the ability to not sweat the small stuff, and enjoy the moment and whatever is given to me....
............ Merry Christmas to All, and to All a Good Night
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Christmas is simple this year, and i am thrilled, we didn't go crazy on the kids, and actually they asked for just a couple of things. the kids will go to Albert's parents, Bill and I plan on chilling in front of the fire, watch old Christmas movies, and i am making a light version of Seafood Alfredo over linguine and a nice salad. I'll do Christmas Breakfast for the kids, sausage, french toast, scalloped apples, and blueberry coffee cake... I am so happy and so content,........
I had my meeting with my life coach today, it went great. I lost 6 pounds (2pounds a week x 3 weeks) . so here it is during the holidays....... still losing weight, and actually losing more than my 1 lb. a week. I will have 3 more phone call meetings and then 1 more face to face visit before the first 6 months are up........ Amie said that i have "embraced" the PREP program more than anyone else that she knows........ and i must say that I have, God has really helped me in this journey. and i have an incredible support system in friends and family.....and I owe so much to my bestest friend and work out buddy Christina....... i just know how you are ... and if you see me lose focus, i can just HEAR you tell me now........ How about a walk tomorrow if the weather allows and if you have any time, let me know......
Well i am not sure how long i will be in the communicating world..... so if I can't get back on line......... Have a Merry Christmas, ........ and enjoy who you are and the moment you are in...... God Bless You,
Friday, December 19, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Katie liked the names, my favorites were Cupid, Angel, Lucky......... the one name i thought of was Gracie, we also heard of Sidney, Roushlon, Lucy, Buck, Kim, ........... But Katie has decided................ don't ask me why............. but the dog does respond to this name.......... the name for the new puppy is................ is............................. IZZY, yes i said Izzy. Was she a character on the movie Fried Green Tomato's??? I must say that this dog is 100% attached to Katie, follows on her heels no matter where she goes...... cry's when she leaves the house...... I've never seen anything like it.........
I am doing a little better stomach wise, hopefully the protonix is starting to heal whatever is wrong in my tummy.... still not eating much......
Chris' son and daughter in law are getting ready to move into their new home, so we were there cleaning and scrubbing all day yesterday. let me say that we Kicked butt......... and i must say Christina does share her grand daughter with me too, Johnny said doing that was a workout, so he let us off the hook yesterday, thank goodness cause my muscles were crying :0). well i am going to go do something constructive this morning. have a great day
Monday, December 15, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
I have not had land line (home) phone or the Internet on and off for 3 days. just came back on about 2 hours ago.
The kids and i just decorated the tree, doing a good house cleaning.... and making stuffed shells and ham.
Not able to eat much right now, even if I eat a little my tummy bloats up so bad...... the doctor isn't positive if the Duodenal Ulcer (from April) has "erupted" again or not, but she could tell my stomach is inflamed. i am to take protonix twice a day for a month..... and try to eliminate stressful situations..... she knows about the stress i am having on the job. therefore she put me on medical leave. so I get re-evaluated in a month. I am assuming she can do that!!! I mean what can the company do... i have an incredible history of stomach trouble and i have been under a doctors care for over a year.....
My doctor offered to give me something for my nerves......... just temporary and I told her No, that i will deal with this situation as best as i can, and if a medical leave does keep me from work, i should be fine.
well i gotta go, tons to do.
love to all,
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Its about my second job at the Methadone clinic, which i truly loved doing soooooo much. tell me how strange this is........ the Clinical Supervisor, The Nurse Manager, and the Physician all are leaving with in the same time frame. sadly i haven't been trained in all areas, and actually i got a good 25% of it worked out , I and the only other nurse are still pretty much in training, of course i am the newest dosing nurse, and still rely on calling my nurse manager for things...........(I've been told when this happens call the nurse manager, if this goes wrong call the nurse manager.....there are signs all over the dosing room for all the nurses to Call the nurse manager) well her last day was December 9th, the Clinical supervisor's last day was December 6th. When i found out that ALL of my superiors were leaving in December, i too put in a letter of resignation not out malice, but I just said until a new manager is hired and trained, I'd need to step back, at this point i did not feel save swimming without the "life jacket" so to speak. I obviously cannot and will not get into everything on a blog...... but trust me when i say there IS a lot going on right now that is shooting radar warning signs directly through my heart... Methadone is nothing to work casually with, it can and does kill people, we have young pregnant girls who's lives and babies lives are in our hands, a too small dose or too large dose could have dire consequences. let me just say the Nursing license that I've had for 20 years is in jeopardy. .......... Well let me tell you this, the first words out of corporate too me is........if you leave before the end of the year we CAN sue you......... what the heck!!!! i don't think they can........ and don't think they will. and i am angry that they don't care that i am back there on my own........ this has been going on two weeks, and i am a mess.... i am so stressed right now, that my stomach is in knots, i vomited once yesterday........ not able to eat........ i know i had the ulcer in April, and I know that i can't get another one or let this one get irritated again, cause that could keep me from any type of abdominal surgery for a while, not just that, Stress wrecks havoc with your immune system, and i am going to end up getting sick if i don't get a grip on this, i am going to the doctors tomorrow to see if he can put me back on protonix at least for a few months. I wish i could explain more, but i just can't. but know this, these Clients have touched my heart, and i am going to miss them. they are what made this job so awesome. Why would God put me in a place but to stay just a couple of months....... i don't know, but God has a time and season for everything He does.......and I continue to trust in His direction for me. who knows, there will be a new place opening up in Indiana next year (at least that was the plan) just maybe...... i just know in my heart that i am supposed to get out of there, and fast. I have 6 more working days between now and December 27th, my last day..... If there is something i am not comfortable with, i will not do it..
Monday, December 08, 2008
I have fun will Bill, and i enjoy being with him. Yes there are days that i would like to, how did i say it Kim?, ........sew his eyes shut. the second year was a tough year.... but it seems the older we get.. the more comfortable we are with each other. I think i'll keep him for another year.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Johnny: Chris, I want you to do lunging squats just using your body weight.
( Chris starts walking to another room)
Johnny: Chris, where are you going?
Christina: I am going to get my body weight..........
(*what the heck......)
once that came out of Christina's mouth she immediately realized what she said, she only half heard John, and she thought she was going to get a couple hand weights........... John lost it....... he started to tell the other trainer what she said..... John said that will be a story to tell for months....... I laughed so hard that I peed myself ever so slightly........ Most people carry their body weight with them, no not Chris........ she must put hers on the shelf.........
I am really starting to see changes again in my body...... my clothes are fitting better, i wake up and notice my muscles.... i feel stronger, feel healthier, oh and the scale at Pittsburgh says i gained 2 lbs or almost 2, first weight increase since February. I hit my first plateau, but I am not too worried, Johnny mentioned today he could really see a difference. he also feels i need to increase my calories on weight training days.. just a little, and make it lean protein, my life coach also agreed to have me try this.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Monday, December 01, 2008
I also must say we got Yelled at kinda sorta by Johnny. he said we "BETTER" get a workout in at home (resistance training) .... before returning to the gym, which will be Weds. cause i work Tues evening
It was Great seeing Kimmie again, we had a nice relaxing time, ( thank you Kim's mom and dad for sharing her) So shortly after she arrived we went and picked up Christina for a little hike...... so i go park at one of the trail heads where you can go left or right... I told them that if we went on Trail A, that it is a gradual down hill to begin with, with a steep hill involved. and Trail B, has one hill going, but coming back it was a down hill slope, ........ what was I smoking?, I was on the trail before, but i totally forgot........ it seemed there were no level parts of the trail, it was a constant up hill, down hill ....... a good mile of the trail was no more than a deer path through the woods, the trail did come close to a cliff area, and there wasn't a fence to stop us from rolling into the river either. Kim's mom, will you still let her come out and play with me ? if i promise not to take her near the cliff again??? Okay now seriously and I am not exaggerating much..... when we got back, my leg, thigh and butt muscles hurt so bad, not like an injury, but like muscles that have been over used. it hurt to sit my hinnie on the commode even, it hurt to stand from a sitting position, it hurt to sit from a standing position.. needless to say Sunday was going to be a day off. I didn't want to actually injure a muscle after I've gotten this far......
today I plan to go to Christina's to do a resistance training work out, and we will have to do two days of Leslie Sansone for walking cause we can't go out in the woods in Western Pa........... two weeks of this...... Make it a good one folks......... love and blessings to all
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I really try to be thankful daily, it sometimes is difficult, but i work at it. I don't really need a special day....... to remind me. I love my family and i love the simplicity of my home and my life.
I spent a few hours at Christina's yesterday...... it is a home filled with lots of laughter and love too..... it was us "girls" Christina, Megan, Jeanine, Me and the newest little female life into the circle of women, Paige. I had the terrible job of holding the baby while Megan finished up her pies and Christina started hers......... i am not being prejudice at all, but this baby is SO beautiful...... and such a little personality already. Tomorrow is our second annual breakfast at Chris' house........ my family and her family...... lots of laughing and maybe guitar hero or a game or two.
I do love this life of mine, and am so blessed, with my husband, my kids, my friendships...... my jobs!
Well i ate breakfast, and lunch like normal, I do NOT want to over eat at Aggies, so i will have my small plate and fill it normally once...... and i will eat it very slowly, I am really trying to work on all the "rules" of the trade, to eat with the Lap band. I would like to continue to lose a pound a week from now until the first of the year like I have been doing....... there is no reason why i can't
Have a great weekend........ Kimmie looking forward to seeing you Sat. I did get called to work for Sat morning....... so i may be a little groggy most of the day...... nothing unusual.........
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
After spending two hours in Pittsburgh, seeing two doctors, they thought I'd be a great candidate for the lap band procedure. and i know my dearest friends are going to laugh.....but she really thought i had a strong grasp on the subject, and had a very realistic view on the surgery....she said i seemed to be well grounded......... I immediately liked her.... she walked in , shook my hand....... sat down and the first words out of her mouth were......" this isn't magic, you can gain weight with the lap band, you could eat all day if you wanted to........ It ,(meaning the lap band) cannot work unless you work with it) She was also thrilled that i was chosen for the PREP study, and i was one of the subjects that was doing the long term treatment..... she said i was so "lucky" to get that, and that learning how to eat now........is a BIG BIG positive in the future success of my surgery. So I finish two more months of diet prep, I have to make a consult with Psychiatric and Dietitian......... she was pleased that my PCP has already done several of the testing I needed. And then we will schedule surgery....... i think it will be sometime in February.......maybe March......... this Journey has no time frame........
Today is a Johnny day at the gym, Sunday Chris and I did a 4 mile hike... and without getting into detail.......... umm, there are more than just "bears" that poop in the woods........ and that is ALL i am going to say
Hi to my GG's, looking forward to seeing Kim on Saturday.. so Chris be ready after lunch to do a little hike........oh wait we cant go on Sat....... we'll have to go on Sunday before she leaves if you have time in the morning....... opps, NOT a good idea to hike in the woods in Western Pennsylvania during Deer Hunting Season.......... i am just sayin'
okay Christina has brought 2 things to my attention, one.... i should just say it was I that got really bad stomach cramps two mile into the hike..... almost made it home....... almost.... and i needed to stay near my bathroom the entire evening.
and i got a little confused, big surprise there. Deer Season does NOT start until Monday, so this weekend will be safe.......so we can go on a nice hike on Saturday.... sometimes even i wonder about Me :o).
Friday, November 21, 2008
Mercy Me ...... Homesick
you're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
and at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why i am broken, the reason why i cry
Is how long I must wait for you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If homes where my heart is , then I am out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why, i wonder if I'll ever know
But even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause i am still here, far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is , then I am out of place
Lord won't you give me the strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now
In Christ there are no goodbyes
And in Christ there is no end
So I'll hold on to Jesus with all that I have
to see you again
to see you again
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is, then I am out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to to make it through somehow
won't you give me strength to make it through some how
won't you give me strength to make it through some how
I've never been more homesick than now
I can't even imagine what it is like to want to hug and talk to your child so bad, that it makes you almost crazy with the pain of not being able too.
Thanksgiving is next week, lets not worry what the economy is doing, or what the government is doing....... lets thank our good Lord for Our Loved ones, and for the simple joys in life. Like I've said before Bob and Gail would give up their home, job, car, everything they have to have their family whole again...... God Bless You guys.......
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I am here at Kiski today, we are supposed to get alot of snow tonight, which will make an interesting journey to the Methadone Clinic tomorrow at 4am, don't think the snow plows will be out yet either........ well i can do what I can do.......and I'll just pray that I'll get there safe and sound. I do love that job but so much responsibility.........so much!!! I used to get nervous and worried, but not anymore.........the worst that could happen is they tell me I am not right for the job......and I work Kiski more :0). Not a problem.
I have my past medical records that are needed, I have my weight history with photos ready, so i have to get my medicine that i take written down........ which i am only on one little blood pressure pill and vitamins so that will be easy, and a Medical Family History needs to be done.......so i'll do that today and then I am set. I will not get my surgery date this visit, only after i complete the 6 month study will they schedule me, So that will be in January. and i am really Not in a hurry either, so when it will be, it will be........ I've long since placed this in God's hands..... so i don't need to think about the details to much.
Well think i am going to get some more of my work done.......... my shift will be over before i know it....... have a great weekend
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I picked up more of my health records today..... and I was on the low abnormal anemic, at one point my D levels were low. i have a fatty liver, normal gallbladder, heart, pancreas......etc
I am NOT showing signs of Peri menopause yet.... I am not pre diabetic if there is such a thing.....( i heard a doctor today say that pre diabetic just means high normal glucose levels, )
lets see what else did i find out by reading my records...... oh yeah i can't forget, I am a very pleasant cooperative morbidly obese white female, with many children......... oh but the best thing that i found out was that my father died young at age 52 from heart disease, but i am glad to know that My mother is alive and well........ where did they get that???? i wasn't even on Demerol while I was in the hospital.
I have been feeling so good, finding more and more energy... today after work at the methadone clinic, and traveling to gather my medical records, i came home and thought i'd nap, i did for 35 minutes, woke up feeling wide awake and refreshed....... go figure...
Dr. Courcoulas on Monday.......... almost here
Monday, November 17, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Just before the sun set at like 4:30, i looked outside and there was so much snow, big huge flakes.....ground covered absolutely beautiful! So i made myself a cup of Holiday Chi spice tea w a little vanilla chi spice creamer.. delicious...... and i enjoyed the view for ten minutes before it turned totally dark out.
Still not sure what to make of the head ache it is there but dull, so hopefully a good nights sleep will do it. I actually have a day off tomorrow too.. and then its back to work tues, thurs, friday, saturday....... and then i see a break coming.......... cause Kiski will be on Thanksgiving Break for 10 days. so i'll just have the Methadone clinic to do.
Well i think i am going to try to call Kim and Patti this evening...... don't wait by the phone ........but i really am going to try.
Christina, no matter what the weather is like i am walking tomorrow, are you ????
So quickly, Kimmie i saw i missed your call late last night..... i put my phone on silent went i am at work......forgot to one, take the phone out of my purse and two ,forgot to turn it back on ring..... lets just say that i missed several calls, and one offer to dinner yesterday......sorry bro :0) it WOULD have been nice not to cook .
and umm Kim i was just thinking from yesterdays post,........ Cheaters laundry....... doing laundry enough to get by for 3 or 4 days....... umm, Kimmie well there are six of us...... therefore, that IS my normal laundry load.
wow........ gotta go get that Aspirin now
Saturday, November 15, 2008
went walking yesterday, but did not get to the gym........ Friday was the one day of the month that just wouldn't work.......ummm without getting into detail.
well sitting here isn't going to get my bedroom cleaned........... so i should really really get going
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I need to call my doctors office today to let them know that I will be needing copies of some of my test over the past year to take to Dr. Courcoulas. I already worked on my time line, and now i will do a brief summary of my family health history. I feel surgery will take place in January or February.....
Oh while going through some paperwork from past hospital visits...... I have lost 34 lbs since February when i decided to take the bull by the horns. i am sure going to Pittsburgh weekly has helped me to stay on track for almost 5 months :0).
Well Johnny decided, so he says, to up the "notch" so to speak on our work out.........umm Chris and I just looked at each other, because we thought we have been working umm "UP THAT NOTCH" since we started . He is so good, and I must say from the moment we walk in the door to the moment we step out.........it is less than 40 minutes ....
today is the ladies hike.......... think there will be 3 of Us.... and i am going to wear my pedometer to measure approx how far we go
Oh speaking of which i better get dressed, I am not going to shower first, so i go with goo all through my hair.......
wow and then i am home for the day........what is up with that :-)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Today I am here at Kiski, and tomorrow morning I go to the Methadone Clinic, going to try and stay awake all day tomorrow...... go work out at the gym with Johnny...... and then go back for my sleep study. Weds we are scheduled to walk again, and then i have a phone meeting with my diet coach..... at least i don't work on wednessday.....
I am getting ready to have my first Consult meeting with Dr. Courcoulas, it is just two weeks away. I need to get a hold of a few records from my family doctor. and i am in the process of figuring a time line for the many stages of weight that i have been all of my life, I pulled out the photo album to help me figure this out. I didn't have a weight issue until after i started having children, oh i was never skinny skinny... i always had the hour glass curves....... And then the weight started to slowly appear, mainly in the hips and thighs, they say that is a "safer" way to carry fat! not sure there is a "safe" way to carry all of this excess weight. Come to think of it i guess by scale standards i was always heavy, here is a pic of me weighing about 180 in a size 10 dress.... ----------------------------------->
So realistically i am not going to get to 140 or 150, if i didn't do it when i was 19 and working at a gym 5 days a week. I am NOT going to do it as a 41 year old that goes to the gym twice a week. But I am confident that I will get healthy again, and i am confident that i will look fine.... but more and most importantly....i am confident that i will feel G.R.E.A.T.!!!
so i picked pictures to go with my weight at various stages of my life. And now i have to figure out when i went on Weight Watchers, 4 different starts. When i did Curves, When i did Calorie King, when i did Atkins when i did slim fast, when i did the grape fruit diet, ......... wow a lot of info to figure into a timeline.
Haven't heard from my lung study test yet, not sure when i will, my goal is to really work hard as to NOT get sick this winter.......... this is my goal! so we shall see, well i think i am going to get going for now, have some work that I should do.
Hi Patti, those nephews of yours are so Cute, I never did get to congratulate you for getting the position.......guess God wants you to do it huh???
Hi Kim, ........keep up the good work, and enjoy the journey. you are doing so well.
Hi Kellie, hope things are going well with you, think about you and your family often
Hi Christina......... heck i am back to seeing you it seems like all the time now........ ;0) oh i am so in love with my little niece.
Hi Gina, we will have to do a weekend walk with Aunt Chris
Hi Jeanine, I just miss you........
Hi Kims Mom, keep the prayers coming, the power of prayer is amazing...... but you already know that.
Hi Cliff, so i am glad you are sorta, kinda, behaving yourself, at least that's what your sis says
and Dear Katie, do not even comment that i didn't say hi to you......... i see you all the time, you live with me remember???
Sunday, November 09, 2008
first fire place weekend of the year, and I love it? this is so much my time of the year. cold rain outside, and a warm fire inside. It feels so good to do absolutely nothing. It has been almost 2 and 1/2 months since I've had a weekend off....and today i am just relaxing, I plan on napping, reading, watching movies, peaking at the football game every now and then. I spent yesterday cleaning cleaning cleaning.......so today can be my day of rest.
Bill and I may go on a short little hike this afternoon. and then again I may not want to get out of my jammies, today is a jammie day for me. Besides Chris and I are doing a nice hike tomorrow morning with a few wonderful women.
Oh and Kim, to answer your Clairitin question. they are the ones that told me to take the Clairitin. and what they are looking for can't be masked by the medication, and taking it will help them make the diagnosis., a malformation of my throat will occur with or with out the claritin, But if i don't snore as loud, and i still show that there are no signs of lost oxygen, or apnea, then they can guess the snoring is from sinus drainage and not obstruction. Hopefully this will be my last sleep study for a while, Now if this test comes back with totally different results, i may have to do another one. this doctor is extremely cautious says the sleep techs.
Well the chair is calling me........ but first i promised the "boys", that i'll make breakfast for a late lunch,,,,,,, vanilla Cinnamon french toast, scalloped apples, sausage, bacon ........ they love it.
I am feeling so good........ such a peace to my Spirit......
Friday, November 07, 2008
okay.......... enough of that......... Tuesday is our next gym day.
okay I've lost another 3 and 1/2 pounds this visit. ( this was in 2 weeks) So i have lost something with every visit since i started in early August. with an average of 1 to 2 lbs a week :0).
Now i have to go and have another sleep study on Tuesday...... and here is the news...... first the tech that called me thought it was very odd that the doctor wants me to have another one, as she said he's never asked for that so quickly before. I guess my O2 level stays great with no drops, I had no periods of obstructive sleep apnea, I slept 87% of the time , and when i did wake up briefly i was back into a deep sleep within minutes. I did NOT experience any Restless legs or stuff like that.......... BUT the only thing i did do...... was snore very loudly....... like 5 on a scale of 1 to 5. and the doctor was actually surprised with snores like that, it didn't hinder my breathing.. Because of the history of 4 for 4 of my siblings having moderate to severe sleep apnea, and because i did wake up choking and coughing once, and because i snored......... he would like another night or two to monitor again. I will say this, i haven't been taking my Clairitin and my sinus drainage may be pooling in the back of my throat causing the loud noise, so i am going back on Claritin today......and will use it for the next sleep study.
Yes i am busy, but i feel so good right now and sure am enjoying this journey.
Well i think i am going to bed now.......tomorrow comes pretty quick
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
well out for my hike, then a doctor appointment and then work
Love and Blessings to my GG's
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
I know who i plan on voting for, and I hope and Pray that He wins. But if He doesn't than I will respect who does win. and I Will honor the position that he has, and I will with an open mind, give him a chance and see what he does........... because you know what? I'd want the same chance if i were in his shoes.
I know ultimately that God IS in control, and as long as i keep my eyes on Him and trust in Him. I will be okay!
Now about last night, it was actually quite interesting. I took a nice soaking bath at home, put on my jammies, took my bed pillows with me, and headed to the Sleep center.... got there for 9pm.... I was taken to a room that resembled a hotel room, answered a hundred questions, and then ............. the process began......... first long wiring with a censor on the bottom threaded through my shirt and Jammie bottoms to each of my ankles, wrapped with Velcro straps. then a double lead EKG sticky one to my rt chest one under my left arm.......... and the sticky sensors placed around my eyes, my chin, my mouth, and then another sound sensor placed on my throat. two sensor bands placed on and around my upper chest and my mid abdomen region. 4 yes i said 4 small prongs placed up my nostrils, wiring tucked behind my ears. also a small sensor hanging from the nasal contraptions placed so that it is directly over my mouth . okay now came the tedious part the Sleep tech, started scrubbing several (and i mean several) area on my scalp, it actually hurt, and one by one he put on a EEG sensor i am not sure how many 15, 20 who knows?........... and then after watching an informative video (instead of the Monday night football game). i got tucked in, told to relax...............and go to sleep........ um yeah right........i feel like Dr. Jekyll's science experiment, hooked up to everything....... BUT the bed was really comfy, and from all the physical activity the day before, i fell asleep pretty quickly, didn't even seem to mind cameras on me all night. I did wake up a few times...... not sure how many. One time i remember waking up to a coughing jag. but i seemed to roll over and go back to sleep. There were no clocks in the room so i wasn't sure what time it was, but the last time i woke up i just knew it was between 5am-6am.... i woke up wide awake, and felt pretty good. spoke out to the tech.......and told him, hey it's gotta be after 5am, i am ready to wake up. The time was 5:21am.......... it took him about 15 minutes to unhook me, and i was on my way, made it home in time to bath, pack my breakfast AND lunch... and make it to work before 7am. I guess they could tell when i was awake, sleep, dreaming, moving, snoring, yawning, gritting my teeth, .... and just about everything else............ looking forward to getting the results. I must be honest with you i ALWAYS wake up feeling refreshed, with energy...... and I usually wake up the same time......and it is ALWAYs before 6am, even if i go back to sleep.......... the first wide awake moment for me is before 6am. But i do find i get tired mid morning....... and need to work through the slump, i also, when able, enjoy a nap, but it never last more than 45 minutes, maybe an hour..... i can't sleep for 2 or 3 hours ........... wonder if they'll find anything????
Today is a Johnny workout day........ Not sure i want to go.......... but i will, for Christina's sake :0).
Have a good day today
Monday, November 03, 2008
Tonight I go up to Indiana to do my sleep study......i am scheduled to go up at 9pm. i know that i am going to be connected with a hundred wires to my head and body, I am going to have a camera on me, and heart monitors and breathing monitors.......and i am going to be told, .......Have a nice sleep, um, yeah, I'll get right on that! I must admit that i am tired right now...... so hopefully I'll sleep. I need to get home by 6am so that i can get ready for work. tomorrow i work at Kiski. and I have an appointment with my *personal trainer. that is if Christina will SHARE him, i am just sayin' we also made arrangements already to walk on Weds morning. I work all week. and have 2 appointments for myself, the sleep study and the lung study..... gosh I am doing all that i can in my power to get this body healthy..... not leaving a stone unturned.
well, i think I'll get going, take i nice bath, shave my legs so when they put the EKG leads on my legs, i won't cut or jab anyone :0)!!!
If i get time I'll blog and let you all know how it went tomorrow while I am at work.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
I must admit, I LOVE my new job at the methadone clinic, I don't like getting up at 4am, and there is SO much work and responsibility to this job, But sometimes when i think about this job, this opportunity that God has given me. I am humbled and honored to be put in this position. These precious human beings (most of them) are in their lowest point of life, they have no self respect. some have been abused as children, some still being abused. some come to me trying to hide the tears of absolute pain and destitution in their lives. I have the opportunity to spend 1 minute with them, to smile at them and not judge, to listen to them and not judge. to make them laugh....*believe it or not i am good at that sometimes :0). They may spend 23 hours and 59 minutes a day feeling worthless, But for that 1 minute. I want them to know, I remember their name, i remember what they told me the day before, and they are Worthy of all the love and respect in the world!!! and as they leave my window for the day.... i pray that God gets them through another day, and that someday, with His help, they will get out of the mess they are in. I know that i am sounding emotional here, but i can't help it, the eyes just kill me, we have a client that has regressed pretty bad, and her eyes...... the emptiness, the sadness, the hopelessness. .. only God can help her...... yup i am where i am supposed to be!
Don't get me wrong i love Kiski, these boys are so darn cute, but i must say since i started working at the Methadone clinic, i don't think i am as tolerant of the "rich" boys that have had the silver spoons in their mouths since birth.... just different spectrum's of Nursing I guess. I guess they were born into it just as much as my clients at the methadone clinic where born into it........ i am just sayin'
I want to bring up briefly Melody........ this girl just doesn't let it go :0) and I am glad. she will be gone almost 2 years in December. and i think about her almost every day. I am confident that I will be able to give her my promise, by next year at this time, I will do the 10 mile hike, haven't forgotten. I'd like to do it in the fall....... a beautiful fall afternoon is what i am planning. My life has certainly changed since i met her, and it hasn't been the same.
Oh and I think Christina will agree with this, My brother Johnny is a "master" at what he does. he can work us out in 20 minutes and it feels like 2 hours, he said he could also work us out for 2 hours and it feels like 20 minutes, but why waste time ? I am not saying this because he is my brother........ but he is so knowledgeable, and backs up what he does with facts. oh Patti, he ended up not leaving, this happened before, he would think about leaving, and his clients beg him to stay, the wealthy ones offer more money...... so for now he stays!!! And he is busy....... jumping from one appointment to another, and he is ALL business, no chatting, ....move move move, and he doesn't have a routine for Us, so when we go Tuesday.......... he said expect the unexpected!! we will see, i just know my muscles hurt in such a good way right now .
OH OH OH, and i MUST tell you, Christina hogged him yesterday..... she did! He's going to start working on her eating patterns soon , at least i think, i just heard bits and peaces as i was a m.i.l.e. away on another machine while she was hogging him!
well this is long.... and i am tired.......... Bill is so sweet...... and i love my life.......... 3 more hours of work to go........... 3 more hours
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Bill's IV antibiotic that is! Look at this face the scar is a thin line, after only a few weeks after surgery! I just unhooked Bill hopefully for the last time. we are going to keep the PICC line in (IV access site) until Tuesday or Wednesday because the doctor said if "rebound" infection is going to happen, then it will by then. So for those praying folks (hi Kim's mom) please keep Bill in prayer this weekend. The doctor is 99.9% sure that it will NOT return, but if it does, he'll go back on antibiotics for up to 6 months. he is feeling really good.
and come to think of it I am feeling really good too! lots of energy, and thank goodness about that, cause i am working ALOT!!! i just got called to see if i'd work a few hours on Sunday, it was/is going to be my one day off....... i didn't give an answer yet.........cause working ALL day 4:30 am until 8pm on Sat. I may not have the energy. we will see.
Chris and I go for our appointment with Our *personal trainer tomorrow. i have a feeling it isn't going to be easy..... but fun!! and hopefully Chris won't whine so much this time........ but don't worry I'll let you know if she does.......i love telling on her
well i think i am going to go to bed, 4 am comes really fast........
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I have my appointment with Dr. Courcoulas in 4 weeks. I AM excited and not really getting cold feet yet. I have a sleep study scheduled for Nov 3rd, and I have a lung study scheduled for Nov 5th. My brother Johnny called me twice today.........mainly to check on how Christina was doing, maybe he was worried......... with all the whining and all ;0)!
I feel so good...... its like poof** DEMERAL, and No headache anymore. guess we will have to wait and see next month what is going to go on.
well i have tons of paperwork to do so that i can leave in the next 90 minutes so i shall get going.
Hi to my GG's hope all is going well for you
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
you know, my brother is so sweet, and I am proud to call him my brother. and he knows his stuff.......BIG time!!! There two days a week and two really good Cardio walks is all that is needed during the week. and then any leisure walks are hikes are a bonus!!
I am feeling good, i am on day I am on day 5 of 9 in working days........ by Sunday I will be exhausted. I think i am going to try and move, get a nice hot bath, and crawl into a cozy bed and read with a hot cup of tea
Saturday, October 25, 2008
I love Demerol/Visteral shots!! I am just sayin'. Today is the first day that I did not have a headache. I have never in my life had a headache like i had for as long as i had it. because i had two"light" shows, they feel i had a migraine on top of a migraine, and I had made this vicious circle just wasn't breaking. I continued to work but it was almost impossible, On weds when my boss came out to my office and found me in the bathroom hugging the toilet....... i new that it was time to head to the doctors. besides Christina made me call first thing in the morning to make an appointment. we are pretty positive that it is hormonal, I've been keeping track of the these new headaches for the past few months, and it is right on the money every month when it comes. My doctor promised me that she would STOP the pain cycle immediately........... whoa who.....she was so right, and she in my new best friend. I will be giving blood periodically throughout the month so we can pin point what my hormone levels are doing. and i have medicine that i take immediately as soon as the "light" show occurs, she said i am lucky i have such a distinct warning as only 30% of migraine sufferers experience this. because this should stop the Migraine from occurring. it was 5 long days ....... and i seriously do not remember much after the shot........i just remember it felt so darn good, and i kept thinking...... wow, what have i missed out on in high school ??? *joking.
I am working everyday until next Sunday....... Christina and I start with my brother Johnny at his gym on Tuesday. Football is over for the boys! so that is a few evenings off for me. Oh i did have my meeting with Aimie my diet coach on weds. I lost 3 pounds this past week. but with the Migraine i didn't eat as much, and i threw up several times... i still drank though so i wasn't dehydrated. so pound for pound it is coming off....... every week..... a pound or two, and I am happy my brother Johnny said tonight," Sandi don't get hooked on numbers, i like when my clients loose like that........... enjoy the Journey!!" and i told him I am......
Oh the photo is of my newest tea pot, right now it has Chi Spice with a little Chi Spice creamer in it. and I am having a mini choc/lava cake that is only 150 calories. and i am heading to my bedroom to watch a movie and drink my tea........
Love and Blessings to all
oh yeah, i got to hold baby Paige, she is absolutely beautiful..... I love her as much as i love her mama and dad already.
oh and PSS I really miss Chris' daughter Jeanine........don't ask me why but i do.
okay that's it
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
well i am going to go see what my head is going to do today, even the computer screen seems to bother me.
love and blessings to all
well I am here at work, and I must say getting ready, my head hurt so bad and I got so nauseous that i threw up once. the sunlight killed me, and i was just squinting, ..... I ended up taking about an hour ago, Excedrin Migraine, and let me tell you....... magic, oh there is still a dull ache in my head, but the lights aren't bothering me, and i am even able to get on the computer. I think i am coming to the end of the 4 day MIGRAINE Fest 2008, Thank God...... i was about ready to go to the ER after work. P.S. when i was in the hospital in Feb they did a cat scan with contrast to my head, looking at my sinus cavities actually. and i Never have headaches except during the time of the month........ but Remembering Karin (sp) from CK, I never want to "laugh" off a headache, right Patti???? Gee NOW i am hungry, i am sipping tea right now, love tea weather!!! Oh and Doctors Chris and Kellie............. a scary thing, i am just sayin'
WOW!!!! spoke too soon, my head is killing me, right behind the eyes. I want to puke!
excuse me for the swear word Kims mom...... but who in the hell asked for an encore to MIGRAINE Fest 2008?? i thought i was done
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
well, what a beautiful day today. the colors are amazing, wow God is such an artist. Bill and I went for a hike today and it felt so good to be out doors, i could choose hanging with Christina in a smoky stale club house, or I could be out in the great out doors with Bill, sorry Chris, i picked Bill and the great outdoors. He took me and Katie out to Lunch at the Olive Garden, went over to hang at Barnes and Noble, and it has just been a nice afternoon.
Well I am maintaining my eating, and it will be nice to really focus again. although i must say, i can NOT eat like I used too, even at olive garden i didn't finish my plate, ate only 1/2 cup of pasta with marinara sauce, and 1 slice of eggplant. i had no desire for dessert either. Now Katie on the other hand, ordered dessert first, she told the waitress, "i always wait until the end to get dessert, and then i don't want it, so now bring it first" gotta love that girl she knows what she wants.
Wow, i am sitting here listening to these dogs......... we wore them out on the hike, they are panting so fast........all three, oh yeah i forgot to mention, John borrowed his dog Louie last sat, and said he'd bring him back on Sunday......... well how dare he take his own dog back, i had to call him on weds to see where the dog was, he brought him back on Thursday.......... something about Louie that you gotta love.
well i am going to work on my diet plan