Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Today is a Johnny day for Chris and I, so i am trying to get everything done this morning, figure out what i am going to have for dinner, get my laundry finished........ cause i am going directly from work to the gym., and then i will come home, i am thinking about a crock pot meatloaf, and roasted potato's and salad...
I forgot that i yesterday was my weigh in....... so i did this morning, and i dropped another 2 pounds. I think friday will be my fill day....so it will mean liquids for a day, pureed for a day, and mushies for a day.... they say it takes some people 3 or 4 adjustments/fills before a Lap band person reaches the "sweet spot" (* you can eat enough food to keep you satisfied for a few hours, but you do not get sick) for the past 2 weeks i've noticed that All the swelling from surgery has gone down, and right now i am not using the Lapband............ i can eat just about everything..... bread seems to be my only problem. and i could prob eat alot if i allowed myself too. like i've said before, the Lapband is not magic..... it will NOT work, unless i WORK with it. i am looking forward to starting a new level of work out with Johnny....... it will be a long time until i get to where Chris is....... but that is okay....... i am sure knowing Johnny, tomorrow if i am released completely.... He isn't going to push me to level 2 to 10 overnight...... i'll trust his knowledge, so i don't injure myself
Well i am not going to get things done sitting on this computer.. so i best get my butt moving. Have a great day today.....after all a Good day is in your control.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Today with mom and dads having two jobs, kids in soccer, girl scouts, little league, dance class, cheering practice......... are things really so simple anymore???
today i spent the afternoon on "the Porch" with Christina, Megan, and baby Paige... enjoying the beautiful day, the wind, the fragrance of spring, chatting and laughing, noticing how quickly the trees, and the newly plowed earth have begun to turn green, Doves cuing in the distance..... it hit me, How blessed I am, and how blessed Christina is. if Chris and I have absolutely anything in common....... it is how we both enjoy such simplicity in life....... So the world continued to rotate, swine flu, shaky economy, bills in the mail, loss of jobs, murders, hatred....... NONE of this could take away the joys of a simple spring day, the laughter and smile of a precious baby, friendship and laughter. we were on Christina's porch today...... before i left i went back into the house, somehow it was mentioned that she still had Christmas decorations up.. she looked around and laughed.... "yes i do", and then she proceeded to give her granddaughter a big hug and kiss on her head....... smiling the entire time.
Monday, April 27, 2009
I am thoroughly enjoying my job....... and as i get more comfortable, it seems to get better!!! the Doctor is giving me more responsibility, and i like that.
I am working on keeping stressors out of my life........ and at times i find it difficult, cause life happens!!! I've said this before, Peace isn't going to come knocking down my door......... it isn't just going to happen... it is something that i've made a conscious effort to find. that is why i get along so well with my X husband. that is why i enjoy my jobs so much... cause i have chosen this path. and i am constantly asking God to help me keep my soul calm and peaceful! it is a task that i have to work on every day of my life!!!
Christina and I went Hiking today, i cannot tell a lie........it was so dang hot, and for the last mile and 1/2 it was an up hill walk....... it was actually painful for me, the heat really bothered me, not my feet, my knees nor my legs.... i was never so happy to see the car as i was today.., i was dizzy and nauseous....... and i whined and whined...... and Christina was ever so patient....... Let me tell you...... she is really getting into shape... i don't even know if she is aware of it...... i know by seeing her on Sunday. Johnny has really upped her workout........ me... not yet, and prob won't for a few more weeks. John is determined that i will not injure myself or my surgery.......... good smart boy!!!
Well i think i will go get a cool bath, and get ready to watch a little TV
love and blessings
Sunday, April 26, 2009
I just had to share
"~God came with me today, He was silent too! I tried to talk to Him, but He said to just BE in his presence today~"
it was a wonderful afternoon in silent prayer and meditation. I didn't tackle my problems, or ask Him for anything, or complain, or apologize,.......... none of that. I just enjoyed hanging with God!!! I think Steven Curtis Chapman sings a song the title is " Be still and Know i am God" that is what I did!!! So i sat in a room with Born again Christians, Muslims, Nuns, etc.......... it was quite a beautiful day.....
getting ready to head to Johnny's , and then i think I'll go to Church... Chris is having a cookout that we'll be going to......... and then i think i am going to Chill for the rest of the afternoon.
I notice that my stomach has healed completely and i am READY for my first adjustment/fill. although i am doing well, i do not have the restriction i had when my tummy was swollen........ that will be this Friday. wow time flies. but i don't think it could come any sooner.
have a beautiful day today folks
Friday, April 24, 2009
I went to bed and fell asleep at 8pm tonight....... i feel good all day, and get so tired at night........ not a bad thing. i just woke up a little after 10 pm, decided to blog, and go back to bed. tomorrow i plan on going to the Retreat given by S'eclairer tomorrow..... its 9 to 3. I must say i really really am beginning to love this job. i am just so happy and content at this time :0). oh and speaking of which, i tried to eat bread for the first time today........ not a good idea, not a good idea at all..... so first food that i cannot eat.....Bread~~~ i am just sayin'!!!
Today was my one day off........ plan on hiking tomorrow, and then we work out with Johnny Sunday......... still feeling good and strong..... planning on going to Church on Sunday..... it will be nice to listen to pastor Tom again, it's been a while. Hey Debbie and Christina, is it okay to sit near you guys if i promise to shower first???
well good night....... anxious to write about the "silent retreat " that i am going to ....
Thursday, April 23, 2009
A dear friend of mine (Molly) several years ago gave me a couple of writings that talked about friendship~ one of these papers talk about the seasons and types of friends..... and i am realizing how true this is. There are people that have come in and out of my life briefly but ferociously... friends that still made a profound difference in my life..... even those that crossed my path for a weekend or a day. And then I have a friend like Christina........ that i know will always be in my life in some way, even 20 years from now.. there are friends that i haven't talked to in years, but the friendship bond is still there, and we can pick up right where we've left off! There are friends with whom i've lost contact over the years and will prob not see again....... i guess this is life, and it works this way for everyone. I do not regret any of these friendships however brief or long... each person came to my life for a reason, for a purpose for a season. Not all friendships are meant to last forever, Not all friendships are meant to be brief........ I guess my job is to accept change..... accept the seasons as they come and Trust God to help me with the changing of the seasons.
On the Lapband front. i am still feeling wonderful, have had no complications......... Christina and I went to the gym yesterday. we walked 4 miles on Tuesday, and we plan on walking 4 miles today. Friday if we can't figure out a time to get to the gym, we "should" maybe walk again. i am eating fine, and have no problems with any food, which i expect being that i have yet to be adjusted.
Well today i go to work at 9am so i really should get my butt moving.
Beautiful weather is being planned for PA. so i plan on enjoying the beautiful sun and the fresh air. with all the rain we've had, and now the sun and warmth....... i think Spring will hit in full force this weekend.... i see Green!!!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Blurry picture but how pretty~ here at work early this morning. this is out my office window. the sun rising, peaking through the trees, fog lying low just in the woods....
I am working so much right now since i am doing both jobs. i am not getting a day off! don't really mind either, but i must say Kiski is very busy... okay 3 hours later, and i can blog again..... that is how busy Kiski is today!!!
Christina and I were talking....and maybe it is time that i stop questioning Johnny and realize he knows what he is doing. last night it hit me..... my muscles started "screaming in pain". funny thing is , every muscle except my abdominal muscles were hurt. .... when he said all the exercises he was going to have me do would not affect my abdominal wall, he wasn't lying. Christina is going to wait for me to get off work and then we will both go for a nice walk.... I'd like to get in 3 miles maybe 4 today. we shall see.
I lost 2 pounds this past week. so i was correct in thinking my weight loss would stabilize and level off. i know when i have an adjustment (band fill) i will again take another jump down. but no hurry....
gee i should just end this entry now, cause I keep getting interrupted....... i work one more day at Kiski.... and then i can focus on my new job. I may stay on just to help out now and then. the new boss is one of my dear friends....
Sunday, April 19, 2009
they say technically Lap band recipients don't feel the restriction/ or as many say, the sweet spot until there are a couple of adjustments. I'll prob be getting my first one on May 1st.
I think my weight will begin to drop more realistically now. but still a little more than avg. (3lbs instead of 1 or 2 lbs a week) I am not going to lie, this is a hard adjustment to make. I have lost about 10lbs a week for 4 weeks...... (averaged out). and of course that can't keep going...... so i do have to work again on my mindset that 1-3 lbs is dang awesome. ;^).
I've been thinking alot about Melody and my promise I've made to her, and i still wonder why is it after all these years, i am still so attached?? i mean the day i went into surgery i wore my Melody Mile tee shirt with an Eagle soaring above the mountains!!! I WILL be giving her the 10 mile hike this fall. i just know it.
I am content and at Peace with my life ... that doesn't mean it is easy, It's nice to know that I am where i am supposed to be.... with my job, my family...... and i don't have to worry about anything else.... cause i just know that God's got my back!
Well i am here at Kiski, I have 2 more days scheduled before the end of the school year... and then i may stay on to fill in once in a while when the nurse needs me which would be prob a couple evenings a year.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
I've been so busy, and so tired at the end of the day........i've been crawling into bed by 8:30 pm, oh i don't fall asleep, just love my cozy bed, and a book. can't say when i took an afternoon nap, i think it was a few weeks ago....... my energy is expanding. and actually i ended up doing a 2.5 mile hike on the golf course with Christina before work. Bill and I will go today. tomorrow i work at Kiski, but i plan on going to Johnny's just to do Cardio and start lightly with some weights!!!
I just love when God knows something is going to be taken away (*my Kiski job~ it is official now) He put in place my new Job. even before i had a chance to worry. I believe everything in my life happens with a purpose, the good things and the bad things!!! and as long as I continue to Trust in Him, nothing happens by accident.
Lap band update~ been too busy even cheating by checking the scale. but my clothes are getting looser, i found 2 size 18 pants in my drawer without the tags even off....... tried them on.......... and they fit!!! i'd like to lose another 10 pounds for them to be loose comfortable like i like them. so i am thinking that may happen just when Patti comes......... and i say may cause i am NOT putting any pressure on myself....... no time frame, no weight loss goals....... just continue to be mindful, and healthy.... and let the band work with me
Well to day is Date day for Bill and Me, and i must say i am so excited, we are going shopping and hiking....... and just hanging together i do love this boy so much...... no "sewing his eye's shut" lately!!
Have a great weekend
love and blessings
Friday, April 17, 2009
Well i should getting going........ laundry to wash, beds to make, floors to sweep....... i like to have it all done so when i come home after 5... i don't have chores staring at me...........
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I've been really busy learning my new job, i come home tired but content. i think i am going to like it~ alot of thinking and problem solving, a lot of pt interaction....... hmm wonder why God is taking me this direction..... guess i need to TRUST Him. He knows me better than i know me!!! i work tomorrow until 5 pm and then the weekend off..... weekend's have more meaning now that i am back to work.
At home, i am catching up on house work, dealing with a 17 year old that is really testing me. i don't feel the need to Nap anymore, but by the end of the day....... my head hits the pillow...... and i sleep!!! i wake up at 5:30 am refreshed....... i wish i could sleep until 7am...... but the dang internal clock of mine is stuck at 5:30a
well i know Bill and i are going grocery shopping tonight, so i need to see if Christina is up for a walk now........ maybe i'll get on later,
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Today was weigh in day and i've dropped 4 pounds.......... yeah i am thrilled, and i will try not to get on the scale until next Tuesday...... besides, i am sure the great surge of weight loss is coming to an end. it was great while it lasted, ..... now they say i should lose about 3 pounds a week for the next few months... i know i am starting to up my Cardio, and in two more weeks, i'll be adding johnny again.... the big jump has helped my body so much, i can tell when i am walking now..... I love my journey. well i am going to head to work for a meeting for about an hour, and then Katie and I may take the little girl she babysits for somewhere.... and then home for the afternoon.. hopefully
Monday, April 13, 2009
Today Bill and i went for walk number 2, in a row. we left the old dogs home to rest a day, and took Izzy! I am still feeling really good. don't seem to have any problems. walked a lot of hills today. when i take pictures from my porch, it is over looking the front half of the used to be golf course...... this photo is taken from the back end of the "used" to be golf course...... i am looking forward to seeing hay fields now....... what a beautiful piece of property, so glad i have friends that will share it with me!
Today i made Curry Chicken Salad, Bill picked me up a Rotisserie Chicken from Walmart..... i took the white meat and shredded it , added celery, toasted pecans...... pepper and curry powder......... and i tried 2 Tbs. on one of those WASA rye crisp lights......... and i must say delicious!!! Thanks Jeanine, Curry was just the seasoning i was "looking" for.
I am really liking my job....... and i've only been there 3 days, but i am at peace, and feel i can go my pace...... my boss is very approachable. and The Doctor practices what he preaches..... so there is an Aura of calmness in the air,...... i like it.
well i think i am going to soak in an Epsom salt bath..... seems to really be speeding up the healing process of my incisions that are pretty much healed ....
think I'll go to bed early and read.........
Bill and i headed out the door with two of the dogs, (we left Izzy home). and went across the road to walk on Chris' farm (can't call it the golf course anymore). this was my first REAL walk since surgery. i mean i've been walking, slow and on level ground for a couple weeks now. but yesterdays walk WAS NOT level in the least. I felt really good, we ended up doing almost 3 miles..... i didn't even wake up sore this morning. i wonder if the weight I've dropped already had made it easier on my body to walk/hike like this already??? could be. I plan on going this afternoon after work again~ time to get back into a routine. still have a couple more weeks before i can begin my weight training with brother Johnny. but there is no excuse not to up my Cardio.
Well i should get going, cause i leave in an hour, and i got to fit in a glass of water, a protein shake, and my quiche before i leave, cause once i eat the quiche, i can't drink again for an hour....
Make it a good one folks........
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Supper tonight was my basic re fried bean/light cheddar/ light sour cream. i want to slowly add my foods, and right now I'll stick to the soft/pureed foods for 2 meals, and eat normal for one meal....
well i think i will go dust and sweep my bedroom...... so tomorrow, other than a nice walk, i can just chill.......
Happy Easter To all
oh Patti, i found the wasa crackers, and I'll try them tomorrow for one of my meals.
oh and i checked my blood pressure today......... without medicine for the past 4 days........ 112/80.......... that is what is truly AWESOME about this whole journey.... i tried to go back on my blood pressure medicine for a few days.....but i found i was too tired..... I have an appointment in a couple weeks, so i'll keep monitoring it.....
Thursday, April 09, 2009
I work tomorrow at S'eclairer, and i just hope i can catch on, i think i am going to like it. time will tell. I do this every time, i get nervous about my job...... instead of trusting that if God put me there, then He will make sure i will figure it out. and again i keep repeating, if something happens then it wasn't meant to be........ This is the most unique psychiatrist office i ever worked at...... and to some, they may think it is very odd~ they believe in meditation, prayer, yoga, healthy food, exercise... in observance, i see the Doctor treats the Lawyer exactly like he treats the "man living on the streets". and actually we as the staff, are not allowed to disrespect ANYONE, even behind closed doors. I think he is Muslim, and i know he embraces my Christian Faith, and i respect him for that. if you would like to just get a glimpse into this very unique doctors office...... check out the site http://www.seclairer.com/
90 more minutes and i can crawl into bed........ ummm a warm comfy bed....... sounds good to me.
oh and does anyone have a good chicken salad recipe ??? made with light mayo??? just askin'
oh , oh, and Jay thanks for such a sweet compliment, you can be a Golden Girl anytime !
The past few days, Joyce Meyer's TV program, has been the episode where i was at in Hershey a couple years ago..... i don't know but i could swear i saw the back of my head not once, but twice!!! does that make me a TV star? Speaking of Church, last week going back to my old country Church for Paige's baptism, i forgot how wonderful Pastor Tom was/is. this man hasn't "lost" it yet. I think I'll start going again. that is if Christina doesn't mind if i sit near her!
Well i better get going, i am a little nervous I cannot lie, new jobs always do this to me....... the fear of not knowing what to do....... i try to calm my spirit and understand....... I can do what I can do..... and the absolute worse scenario is , i don't like it and i go somewhere else.....
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Well i am leaving in an hour to go spend a day at my new job..... i won't be home until after 5 pm. but i gotta get back into the grove thing... and i need to drink my protein shake, eat my quiche, and pack my lunch so can't stay long on here....... maybe I'll stop in later
Sunday, April 05, 2009
And the weekend is winding down. today was a busy day too.... went to church at my old church for Paige's baptism. what a beautiful little girl, and she was so good and then went to her little party afterwards~ the afternoon was dedicated to Bill as I haven't spent much time with him lately, and he worked so much this weekend......so we just chilled.
I did well at the party, i had 2 tablespoons of Christina's cheesy potato's mashed and i had 3 small bites of cheesecake.... i was fine. the food didn't bother me at all. actually it was nice not to focus on the wonderful food there..... later on i came home and had 1/4 c of refried beans seasoned with taco seasons, 2 tbs of cheese, heated until melted with Tbs. of light sour cream..... yummy........ and Supper was 3 oz of fish and 1/4 c of mashed potato's and ff gravy. oh and breakfast i pulled out of the freezer one little serving of my Quiche i made yesterday . That is it, i wasn't hungry at all today, ..... it feels good to eat food that, how do i say it......... stays in my tummy for a while. now i have 24 ounces of water to drink before bed.....so i better get to it......
have i mentioned yet that i am feeling so good.... OH OH OH...... i almost forgot.... i couldn't figure out why last night i woke up in the middle of the night with such bad stomach pain..... i couldn't figure out what i have done wrong. or what could be wrong........ well go figure..... my 28 day "schedule" did not get altered by surgery..... and so the cramping begins. gee usually i retain water/weight at this time of the month ..... if that is the case am i going to have another big dip on the scale...... time will tell
Saturday, April 04, 2009
Bad idea....... i didn't drink much yesterday, and didn't eat much...... i tried to eat a little before bed...... but i just couldn't, so i ended up eating a diet fortified pudding. i woke up in the middle of the night with bad belly pain..... not from surgery....... it feels more like muscle/rib pain and lower abdominal pain, again not my tummy..... more intestinal. actually i had no problem with the one meal, and it kept me full for quite a while.
Tomorrow i may go to Johnny's to ride the bike while Chris is getting beat up. My doctor said i could.... I can do the bike, treadmill, elliptical. i cannot use my abdominal muscles until May 1st. The doctor said if my trainer can work with me without using my stomach than i can do that. Well Johnny is all about Core weight training..... every exercise he has me do, is stabilized by using my abdominal muscles.... so i will have to wait...
well i better go get my fluids started, i do not want a repeat of yesterday. also it is Caleb's birthday party today.........so i will prepare what i am going to take for myself to eat. also want to make the quiche i am allowed to have now..... this evening Bill works his second job... so then i can chill.
i also gotta call Kimmie, we haven't chatted in a while... but i saw she did stick up for me on facebook when my brother Doug said he took my mom and dad on vacation with him (mom and dad have been dead for years)
well i really do have to go........... drink and eat.......
love and blessings
Friday, April 03, 2009
So i've been a good girl....... food wise, so he said i no longer have to puree' everything.... i can eat mechanical soft foods now...... and i will continue to add soft foods in the next two weeks....... and then start regular foods. i am to keep track of how much i eat, how full i feel, what foods i can and cannot tolerate.... all this info is needed so they know how to adjust my band. His last order was to go some place and have mashed potato's........
Bill and I stopped to eat, i ordered the senior citizen/child's portion of baked cod, and a scoop of potato's and gravy... i was a little scared to take my first bit...... so i take a small piece of fish, chew it well........ and swallow........ nothing happened..... so i continued to eat slowly...... thinking wow this isn't bothering me at all..... and then the next bite, i felt a little pressure in the middle of my chest, it wasn't painful at all...... but i was suddenly done eating...... i ate 1/2 of my children's portion of lunch
i am not allowed to drink for an hour after a meal....... so i can resume drinking my water now.
i have a very busy weekend planned, and it begins tonight, so i am going to go take a nap now...... have a great weekend
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
who would have ever thought that a silly little fictional book could have such an impact on me....... i mean I've read books by the greatest ministers, and teachers....... and they didn't have an impact on me.
Also i am back to listening to Joyce Meyer again in the mornings....... and she has such a cool way about preaching about Living...... its a nice fix to start my day.
well enough of that........
I continue to feel so well....... although had a little scare yesterday..... in the morning i noticed "drainage" from my largest incision, it was thick whitish yellowish..... panic set in for but a second....... i felt good, was NOT running a fever, other than the incision site, there was no increased redness...... but being the good girl i called my surgeon anyway. well it seems to be some fatty tissue dissolving..... almost liquefying, they didn't seem to think there was anything major going on. BUT if my temp even went up a degree, that could indicate complications......... i took the last steri-strips off, cause moisture was being trapped, and it needed air, and antibacterial soap, and nothing else......... it looks fine today, no pain, no drainage....... so all is well.
ALSO, i haven't gone back on my blood pressure medicine yet..... i mean i was going to......... but i've been monitoring my blood pressure closely, and it isn't even remotely high......... the last time i checked it was 120/80, heck my medicine would keep it at 138/84. so i see the surgeon on Friday, and my Family doctor next Friday..... so we will see what they are going to do about that.
I was very tired today.......... very tired, and i am sure it was from a busy day yesterday being the first day i went to observe my new job.......... so i spent a good part of today resting, went or an appointment, and will rest all evening and drink my fluids, my snack, my supper............... Friday i will be adding more foods......... i am just afraid to do such until i see my doctor, i have a wonderful Mushroom/Cheddar Quiche to make, and a huge box of Talapia to cook...... wow something not pureed.... soon so very soon..............