my enemies aren't His enemies.....

you know it would be really wonderful to think, who ever hurt me, or who ever i "can't stand".....well of course God would just feel the same, i mean since i love Him so much..... and I am so "good"........ uhm yeah right!!!. I guess it would be appropriate for Christians like me to get off of our high horse and realize that yes we are so incredibly special to God, BUT no more than anyone else on this beautiful earth. ... (even those that inflicted pain on us). It has been a while since i read a nice piece of Fiction, The Shack. I KNOW it was fiction, but obviously there was a message that has really hit home with me, and something i can't seem to forget ~Christina will verify, how many times I've said..... that darn Shack book.... i didn't want my eyes opened. let me explain an example.... and i am going on a limb here,cause i am not sure if my sister in law reads this..... My brother married my sister in law who had a little girl.... well she is ten now. and she has been one of the most difficult children that i have ever had to be around (* her mother would agree, and has said so many times). my family esp the boys and Bill have a real problem being around her.. i am not going to get into her behavior or her history, cause i will not cross the line with someone Else's privacy. well shortly after reading that book... this little nagging feeling kept digging at me.... and it was God telling me, not only did he not want me to avoid her anymore... he wanted me to start doing things with her just the two of us.... i thought to myself i can't tolerate her at all.... there is NO way i can do this...... the nagging never stopped........ well over the past couple of months my heart has softened... the day before my surgery i took her out and bought her a few things and took her out to eat........ it was so nice, and we truly had a nice time.... her comment was "Aunt Sandi, can we do this once a month?" she was so excited...... i truly don't feel the same about her now. has she changed much? i really don't know? Cause it was me that needed to change. the boys STILL feel the same, Bill still feels the same. and they are quite confused as to how i changed my feelings so fast!!! I don't know....... all that i know is ........SHAME on me, she is a child that has had so many 'issues' i can't begin to explain.... God wants me in her life i know this.......
who would have ever thought that a silly little fictional book could have such an impact on me....... i mean I've read books by the greatest ministers, and teachers....... and they didn't have an impact on me.
Also i am back to listening to Joyce Meyer again in the mornings....... and she has such a cool way about preaching about Living...... its a nice fix to start my day.
well enough of that........
I continue to feel so well....... although had a little scare yesterday..... in the morning i noticed "drainage" from my largest incision, it was thick whitish yellowish..... panic set in for but a second....... i felt good, was NOT running a fever, other than the incision site, there was no increased redness...... but being the good girl i called my surgeon anyway. well it seems to be some fatty tissue dissolving..... almost liquefying, they didn't seem to think there was anything major going on. BUT if my temp even went up a degree, that could indicate complications......... i took the last steri-strips off, cause moisture was being trapped, and it needed air, and antibacterial soap, and nothing else......... it looks fine today, no pain, no drainage....... so all is well.
ALSO, i haven't gone back on my blood pressure medicine yet..... i mean i was going to......... but i've been monitoring my blood pressure closely, and it isn't even remotely high......... the last time i checked it was 120/80, heck my medicine would keep it at 138/84. so i see the surgeon on Friday, and my Family doctor next Friday..... so we will see what they are going to do about that.
I was very tired today.......... very tired, and i am sure it was from a busy day yesterday being the first day i went to observe my new job.......... so i spent a good part of today resting, went or an appointment, and will rest all evening and drink my fluids, my snack, my supper............... Friday i will be adding more foods......... i am just afraid to do such until i see my doctor, i have a wonderful Mushroom/Cheddar Quiche to make, and a huge box of Talapia to cook...... wow something not pureed.... soon so very soon..............