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I am learning a whole different level of eating right now, thank goodness i've been preparing for a year, or i don't think i'd be able to do it if i hadn't. yesterday evening I went to Christina's house to watch a movie with her, her family, and her nieces, it was so nice to just get out of the house, i even stayed in my jammies (Chris' house is my second home). packed my drink *1/2 strength fruit juice, a light yogurt, and 3 oz of cream of mushroom and beef soup....... the menu there were two different types of chicken enchilada, baked Spinach / ricotta and mushroom ravioli's, large salad, cheese crackers, garlic bread, dutch apple pie, strawberry short cake, ice cream, black forest chocolate cake..... we figured for a treat i'd toss my soup, and they boiled me two spinach /ricotta ravioli's we pureed it using Christina's homemade jar sauce, it was the same consistency as the soup, and i ate 1/2 and brought the rest home, and then for dessert i had 3 bites of cherry cobbler light yogurt. suddenly i felt a tightness right in the center of my chest, not pain, just a tightness.... and I stopped eating!! I was fine, i was satisfied, i watched the movie, and after an hour started sipping a bottle of water. I never got overwhelmed with hunger, and i focused on the company and the movie. Afterwards though when i was getting ready to go home, it hit me......so i came home, and went to bed.
I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This morning i had my cream of wheat w peanut butter, i must admit i am not drinking enough today, i had some company for a couple hours, one of my sons friends mother. for lunch i had the "cream of ravioli" soup. and just now, using the "bullet" food processor bill just picked up for me, i added mashed potatoes, canned chicken, and fat free gravy, .. and bam i had the BEST tasting creamy soup i've had yet.... it hit the spot. and actually it pureed to a thick drinking consistency, but that is where i am at..........so i wait an hour and then i gotta start drinking drinking drinking......
I am feeling awesome, physically, spiritually and emotionally... that doesn't mean that it isn't tough......cause it is, and i am going to say this is the hardest thing i've ever done..... when i was leaving Christina's last night, i was thinking....... i don't want to just taste that food, i want to pig out........and i could have, and would have, BUT i would rather be healthy in the long run........ this is going to take time, especially this first month while i am slowly adding foods,..... and while everything is pureed.
oh my fruit right now is baby food fruits, my veggies are baby food veggies,
i am ready and i am set.....
I don't know if i've lost more weight as i am NOT getting on the scale until Tuesday.... but i sure feel good, the surgery sites are healing really really fast, no signs of redness or drainage. after going through papers, i realized i am supposed to also include 3 8 ounce protein shakes a day.... opps!!! we picked that up today....... this will give me 90 grams of protein a day just in shakes alone....
have a great week end, i am going to enjoy tv with Bill