Several weeks ago I mentioned some financial difficulties that we are experiencing, That was really bothering my husband. He didn't want to tell me.... which caused some stress in our lives. (you can't hide things from a woman, they just know that something isn't going right). Since he opened up to me, an immediate weight was lifted in our Marriage. There have been a few night that I've been unable to sleep, trying to figure out what we can do to expedite fixing this minor issue in our lives. Finally, i just decided...... what is the worry, it is so easy to say......"give it to God"... IT is much harder to give it to Him. So a week or so ago, come to light of Andrew's accident, I realized, There is no reason to worry about financial situations, it is nothing in the scheme of things, it is nothing compared to the love health and safety of our Family and Friends!! So this is what I said........ "God figure this out for me, amen" and i let it go. Well yesterday out of the Blue, a company i used to work for called me. The gentleman that I did home nursing for, asked the company to find me and ask me back. ( he was injured in a chemical accident, his eyes where dissolved by acid. and now he has cornea transplants, He needs a nurse to put drops in his eyes.... that's all that I do.) it is funny I had this job while we were adding/remodeling our home. and then after that was done, this job took a back seat, and eventually phased out. it's been a year since I last worked. The pay is double almost triple what I make at kiski. Working there one day is what I make at kiski working 2 and 1/2 days. So I figure I can work Kiski school 2 or 3 days, and Work with the agency 2 days a week. I know, I know, I need to take care of myself too.... but i also need to help my family out for a while. HOW blessed I am to have a career that I can control how often i work, We know that Kiski is 100% stress free job. and i have tons of me time. My agency job is stress free as far as the job and patient is concerned. I do have to deal with a family member who changes personalities frequently. But i am a changed person since i worked there last.... Melody's Mile has truly been working to change me in all aspects... not just a physical change, but a spiritual, mental and emotional difference. The most I can do is try it.........no strings attached, i can stop at any time.
Now i guess God could "let" me hit the lottery, but that is not what he choose. I've got to trust that I am to be at this house for whatever reason. I don't know, But God does!!!
It's like the story I've heard many times in Church........
A man's home was being flooded by terrible rains, he was able to get on his roof, there he Prayed..... "God Please Save Me" 10 minutes later a boat drove past his home. The man on the boat told the man on the roof to come aboard. The man replies, no thank you, i am waiting for God. The man in the boat shook his head and left, now the water was almost to the top of the roof, and another boat came past, and the same conversation took place. the man remained on the roof. finally the water was had risen to above the roof and the man was just hanging on..... a Helicopter came past, and the man refused to get on the helicopter, because his Faith knew that God would save him. Finally the man drowned. Meeting God in Heaven, He said, "Father, I trusted you, I asked you to Save me.......why didn't you? " God looked at the man, and said, "What did you want? I sent you two boats and a helicopter?"
Do we refuse to get on the boat when it comes around? Well I think i am going to step on this boat.
Have a great day
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