Thoughts......

Mothers day was this past weekend, and even today i have so many thoughts going through my mind. I've been thinking a lot about my Nephew who passed away in November, and I wonder how his Mom handled Mothers day. she has two beautiful children on Earth, and one in Heaven! and I just wonder how does she survive this, how does she keep going on. She was so close to her first born son, i just feel so sad for her right now, and i can't even imagine the hole ripped in her heart- and i wonder can the children left behind even partially cover the hole. And i thought of my mama, and I wonder what it would be like with her here on Earth. I feel we would have done a lot of things together and she would have doted on the kids, and she would be so proud. And then my X mother in law comes into my thoughts, I hate saying X, I don't think there is a Grandma (and Grandpa) that is so active in their grandchildren lives. My kids are so attached to their Grandparents, and I am not even remotely jealous, I am proud and thrilled to have them in my life. Just in dear Abby last night, someone had written about their son and daughter in law doesn't want the grandchild spending any more time with them, the grandparents, because the paps health isn't the greatest, and they wanted to spare their child the pain of death. NOT my philosophy..... love quickly, deeply, and honestly,. A life time of loving memories will sustain me until i meet my loved one again! I am sure if Gail had the choice of 18 years with Alex, or never having children...... she would pick the 18 years with him hands down!!! And believe it or not I've been thinking a lot about Christina, She is such a dear friend, and over the years, my kids have grown so attached to her. I am not thinking morbid, but I know if something would ever happen to me, she would try her hardest to make sure my kids were okay, Especially my son Andrew who is so sensitive, I KNOW as I KNOW , she would mother him. and I know that she would make sure my kids always knew how much I loved them. And who knows every stupid thing I've done or said more than Christina......... she'd keep me alive, i am sure of it.

I am not sad, not really, but my thoughts are deep right now...... it's just that, oh i don't know i am sure it is prob getting close to that Emotional PMS time.... I'll just go with it!!!

Well I should be getting back to work now, I am actually busy today.

Hello to all my GG's, oh family first, hello family, and than hello to my GG's