okay I almost give up. And an obvious factor that I have found that works for myself, is the little one inch strap that goes just below my knee. it seems to keep the tendons in place. I only have one, so when my right knee started hurting really bad, i switched it up for a few days, now my right knee is fine and my left one is acting up. Friday i will pick up another Patella knee brace and just wear them on both knees.
My brother John had to modify my workouts some what.... believe it or not I am too strong!!! yeah that is what i thought. My body gives up way before I do :0), which i guess i don't listen to warning signals too well. Hey Gina, do you remember that evening we walked/hiked 7 miles! What were we thinking??? Yesterday Bill and I walked the trail about 2 miles, My soul wanted to keep walking..... but i knew my body i.e. my legs, feet, knees. would be crying for the rest of the afternoon. But esp on trails that I don't know, i just keep wanting to see what is around the next bend, what is over the next hill..... there were so many canoe's and kayaks in the river yesterday, i am seeing the little town of Saltsburg becoming a little outdoorsy fitness type of town there are so many trails and so many rivers and streams. At the trail head where we parked, it was filled with cars! biking, hiking and canoeing all in one area. Back to the hike now, Bill walks so far ahead of me, but i don't mind. i go my own pace and it gives me time to look and think and enjoy the moment. I am on an appreciate Billy week, so bare with me, but i guess i just really have been looking and seeing what he does for me. from waking up with coffee in bed, to putting away the dishes in the dishwasher, from washing the laundry and bringing it up to me to fold to limit the time I am on the steps with my bad knee. Grilling me a piece of chicken so I can have it as soon as I get home from work. from knowing when I've had an extra busy day, so when i walk in the door, i have a hot tub of water ready and waiting. And lets just forget about me for a second. ....... I watch him with the kids, he makes sure Katie's car has good tires on it. He knows that Andrew's favorite hot dogs are Nathans, so he's sure to buy them for him, he is forever making Sammy evening snacks... ( Sam has an appetite that can't seem to be satisfied right now) I hear him and the kids out in the living room during a Penguin Hockey Night... they have so much fun. ( i am usually in my room reading or watching a movie.. sorry Kim's mom). He is not perfect, neither am I, but I guess having a good marriage takes a lot of work, It seems the first couple of years are the "honeymoon years", and then it seems that many women, speaking about ME!, seem to find every little fault to bitch and complain about, all of the sudden habits we knew our husband always had, suddenly grate at our very nerves.. and we spend years trying to change the habits........ and then If marriage survives that, it seem that Acceptance takes place and a comfort is found, a deeper commitment and a deeper love.... different than the first stage of love when everything is googly and giddy!!!....... Oh i can't seem to explain myself right now.... I have a brother who got married just 6 months before me, and their marriage is so messed up right now....... if they can just get beyond........ the sadness of not talking to each other, when you are around them....... you can see the tension in the air, you can smell it and feel it. Oh well........ i pray that God helps them....... there are two kids involved. and both seems to be leaning on wrong people.. instead of each other...... it all spells disaster to me!!
Okay enough of that. I do have some paper work to take care of at work, I work tomorrow and then I think i have like 6 weeks off, Johnny is NOT happy with my eating...... I am not eating enough, and it seems I'll eat most of my calories *1500 in a period of 3 or 4 hours. usually in the evening. And i am Not drinking enough water... so i have a feeling he is going to really buckle down with me the end of this week. i babysit Thurs and Fri..... and then some Me time,