lifted up to a higher standard of living.

Okay something has been bothering me since last night, And i sometimes wonder in this world....... are my thoughts alien like? I am going to try and tell this without using names. ______ was telling me about her church, and invited my kids to go to "fun" time there. We had been to that Church before, (church is not near Us) And i just didn't have a great feeling about the minister...... fast forward 2 years....... a past member of this Church told my husband about some "immoral thoughts" and actions that happened.with this minister. My instinct is i didn't like this guy in the first place. but still a rumor is a rumor. So it came to pass, that ______ was aware of this, and the minister actually spoke to her husband, and the past member about this situation. She told me yesterday. This minister and his wife adopted several foster children, one was a girl they adopted when she was around 10 or 12. Well this minister and his "daughter" (she was now 16 or 17) began having um sexual feelings for each other....... there is a good chance that "things" happened. ______ said well, I am still going there, after all he is still a man!!!!! This ministers main focus is youth..... his church is ALL about youth.... Do I want my children around him..........NO NO NO!!!

I do understand that Ministers are first and above all, are human. But I feel when a man stands behind the name of Jesus........ he better be worthy of it. That doesn't mean he is perfect, and i would never expect that..... it is okay for a Minister to get grumpy, maybe even say the word "damn, shit, hell" Can a minister have a cold beer and yell at the TV during a heated football game?........sure Can a really good minister, make fun of "short buses"? well yeah......Can a minister be sad, depressed, angry, fearful, even look at the Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue?.. yeah. they have the same desires, fears, lusts, hopes and dreams as ALL humans do.

BUT it is NOT acceptable to lust and act on that lust with your daughter, adopted or not. It is NOT acceptable to abuse children? It is NOT acceptable to be passed out drunk in the local bar, It is NOT acceptable to abuse your wife, physically or emotionally.

When you stand up in the name of Jesus......... you better be worthy. somehow i think it is these people that hurt Jesus way more than the homeless drunk on the street that never knew Him

Pastor Cliff, I do hold you up to a higher standard, and if i got on your website and found you had a link to some porn sight..... man or not, I'd be ticked off. Do you feel that.........because of your calling, and your choosing..... that you do have to lift up to a higher standard of living? I mean........ whether you want to or not...... people are looking at you, Christians and Non Christians...... and you are representing Jesus?

when i was younger before kids, i never went to the cool parties, never drank,....... always did the right thing.... most of the time...... and then i got married and had 3 kids. And then Albert left me, and i was single again.... my friends at work, kept asking me to go hang at the bar after work...... Well, i believe being a Mom, i had to lift up to a "different" standard of living.. i had 3 pairs of eyes on me. my kids ages at this time were 5,8,10. what message was I sending to my kids, my daughter was 10? I am not saying i didn't think it would be fun.......to let loose, i was feeling great, looking great....i felt empowered having survived the terrible feeling of being rejected by my husband, . i didn't "sow" my oats before marriage........ BUT i choose to be a mom, and for me, that path would not have been right. So i figure, when i am in my late 50's, after my kids have left and have families of their own, Maybe then i can get wild and crazy ;~) I remember drinking a couple wine coolers too fast last summer, they say i was just tipsy...... well.....I cannot lie,. it felt pretty good! But i don't think i can get past that, i like being in control, so i guess that is why i didn't drink or do drugs. and don't even like to take pain medicine unless i absolutely need it.

well, i am going to do some more "spring" cleaning and i should go try and eat something. get my housework done, and read some Harry Potter in the afternoon. tomorrow i go back to work........ first day in over 2 months. looking forward to it.