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I was going to again blog about my other son, because it is the last thing i think about when i fall asleep, and it is the first thing i think about when i wake up.. but as i sat here this morning talking to the boys before school, i just couldn't help notice how different they were dressed. and i was reminded that all my energy can't go to the Prodigal.... I don't think i am as angry as i was, but i will say i am finding it harder than i thought. I KNOW he can't come back, i know i've given him a million options in the past five years, I know that my boys would leave, my husband would leave if i brought the disrespect and tension back into this home. I KNOW i am doing the right thing. i know that it was a fluke that we found the disturbing things that we did in his room,... which gave me the 100% knowledge that i had to do what i had to do. but it doesn't make it easier...... i can't help but worry about him, my goodness he is my son. and has been for five years.....i don't have a switch that i can turn off and on...... instead i analyze, feel, cry, get angry, rinse and repeat.
Andrew has a game tonight, love friday night football. I am hoping that i can enjoy a day off next week.... these past two weeks have been so hellish and busy~ a day to myself would be so nice. well I have to get a few things done, work today, and i have a feeling it is going to be very busy day. Tomorrow i have a dinner to go to and friday i have a day long conference to attend and then the game, and Sat i will go and clean......... maybe after that i will hole up in the house , and read a book..........maybe.
Have a nice day today .........
3 comments:
And both soooooo handsome!
:xoxo:
Yes I agree, they are so handsome. It's hard to believe that just a couple of years ago, Drew was wearing Michael's hand me down Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle costume everywhere he went! Oops, I guess I should clarify in case people think that he was wearing it when he was 16, I meant it facetiously. It was more like 15 years ago. Haha!
Hey Sandi, what day is it???
OMGawsh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can not begin to believe that picture is of your boys. I remember Sammy was running around the house cute as a button when I was there in Pa seems like a million years ago. The boys are so grown up and handsome! Sammy sure looks like you.
Love yans all
Kellie
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